I have always been a upbeat and could handle anything that came my way. But I have sunk into a depression that I can not crawl out of. I feel as if I have failed everyone I love. I can not seem to control the crying anymore. What is wrong with me. I wish I could just lay down and go to sleep and never wake up. But that would be letting the people I love down even more. Maybe the tears keeps me from having a breakdown.
I am a 51 yr old woman that had a hysterectomy at the age of of 23, that may have been my first mistake. I have always been the one everyone looked to for the strong shoulder and the person who got it done.
I dont know why I am doing this it is not going to help no one cares
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
What a year it has been Grandchildren,Karaoke,
Boy never thought I would have a problem with figuring out anything but it is day number 2 trying to use Twitter. I think today I actually made some headway only time will tell. Twitter has become this obbsession now I want to constantly look to see if I got a tweet back and I finally got ONE!!!! LOL Kind of how this place is uhmmmmmm. Wonder why that is?
We are still doing Karaoke and having a blast you can see us on Tuesday Nights 9pm-1am @ BB's Sports Bar & Grill in Palmetto Bay,Fl it is right off US 1 by the Brandsmart.
Alot of things have changed for us our grandson now lives with us he is 12 going on 40!!! We raised him from birth but he went to live with his father when he was 5. I thought what I was doing was for the best of the child but now he has been back with us almost 2 years and I sometimes just sit and cry because of what he has went through. I would take it all back if I could and I would have done everything I could to keep him in our home but I am not looking back on that now I am moving on and helping him too. He is finally showing some feelings he was so cold when he came back to us. He was angry because we made him stay. He would ask to come home but we thought he just wanted to because he was mad at his dad we also thought he needed time to adjust. OHHH if I had known the mental abuse the child was going through. He is in counseling now and it really seems to be helping he is coming out more he was such a loving child always hugging but when he came back he did not want to be touched he was cutting himself it has been bad. I have prayed and prayed. He is doing alot better but we still have a long way to go. So if anyone would ever say that mental abuse is not that bad I would tell them a story about a 5 year old child that was loving and beautiful and 5 years latter a child that hated had ugly thoughts inside was cutting himself to feel the pain he was void of emotions. The important thing is he is back living with loving adults that can help him learn to love again.
We are still doing Karaoke and having a blast you can see us on Tuesday Nights 9pm-1am @ BB's Sports Bar & Grill in Palmetto Bay,Fl it is right off US 1 by the Brandsmart.
Alot of things have changed for us our grandson now lives with us he is 12 going on 40!!! We raised him from birth but he went to live with his father when he was 5. I thought what I was doing was for the best of the child but now he has been back with us almost 2 years and I sometimes just sit and cry because of what he has went through. I would take it all back if I could and I would have done everything I could to keep him in our home but I am not looking back on that now I am moving on and helping him too. He is finally showing some feelings he was so cold when he came back to us. He was angry because we made him stay. He would ask to come home but we thought he just wanted to because he was mad at his dad we also thought he needed time to adjust. OHHH if I had known the mental abuse the child was going through. He is in counseling now and it really seems to be helping he is coming out more he was such a loving child always hugging but when he came back he did not want to be touched he was cutting himself it has been bad. I have prayed and prayed. He is doing alot better but we still have a long way to go. So if anyone would ever say that mental abuse is not that bad I would tell them a story about a 5 year old child that was loving and beautiful and 5 years latter a child that hated had ugly thoughts inside was cutting himself to feel the pain he was void of emotions. The important thing is he is back living with loving adults that can help him learn to love again.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
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What A Summer This Has Turned Out To Be
Hello everyone we have not blogged in awhile. So I thought I would drop in and add a few lines. We were at a block party on the 4th of July what a great time. It was great to see everyone having fun the kids had a bounce house,egg toss,basketball and of course no summer party is complete without a water balloon fight. It sure took your mind off all that is going on in the country and world these days. My deepest Thanks to Diane and Her husband Rex what a great job. Of course we were the KJs for the party and had birds eye view of everything that was going on. I love seeing the children getting up and singing it is good for the soul so to speak. And of course Lee was there and let me tell you everybody that was there stopped what they were doing and watched that show. I got some pics but no videos. Well everyone I think that about covers it. I will be back later with more and pics.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Weight Watchers Ebook Collections: Recipes, Points
This is what I think of "Weight Watchers Ebook Collections." I have been trying to find a diet that I could use for everyday meals that are healthy for the family. Because it is hard to stick to a diet when you are cooking for your family and yourself. From my personal experience it is frustrating, time consuming and I have always ended up dropping the diet and cooking the same meals for everyone.
Not to mention the extra money spent to buy the foods only you can prepare for yourself. And with economy today it is not always that easy to do. Buying groceries for you and then the household too. Besides who wants to spend all that extra time in the kitchen preparing two separate meals. Not me that's for sure, but the "Weight Watchers Ebook Collection" is a great answer to giving the family a healthy meal and losing weight also.
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Not to mention the extra money spent to buy the foods only you can prepare for yourself. And with economy today it is not always that easy to do. Buying groceries for you and then the household too. Besides who wants to spend all that extra time in the kitchen preparing two separate meals. Not me that's for sure, but the "Weight Watchers Ebook Collection" is a great answer to giving the family a healthy meal and losing weight also.
Click here for more information on Weight Watchers Ebook Collections
Karaoke South Florida Style
My wife and I are karaoke junkies as they say. But "Karaoke South Florida Style"gives Karaoke a whole new meaning besides we kinda like the show that goes along with it too. Yes we have our own gig that we do, but we also go to other places where they have Karaoke.
Sometimes you run into some outrages ways that people have of performing the songs they choose. We were at one of our usual spots that we go to, and much to our surprise we got a version of how Uncle Lee does Play That Funky Music.
The place was rolling on the floor literally when he had finished his rendition. I thought that it would be fun to share with the world how much fun you can have when you do karaoke. I know you are saying don't you mean scaryokee.
Well sometimes it is but for the most part there are usually some fairly good singers hanging around. And the show itself sometimes is worth just watching. Just follow this link and you will see what I mean http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80Ahd94E5QM
They say he does a mean job of Love Shack, but we have not seen it yet. As soon as we catch him doing it and get it on video we sure will be sharing it!
Sometimes you run into some outrages ways that people have of performing the songs they choose. We were at one of our usual spots that we go to, and much to our surprise we got a version of how Uncle Lee does Play That Funky Music.
The place was rolling on the floor literally when he had finished his rendition. I thought that it would be fun to share with the world how much fun you can have when you do karaoke. I know you are saying don't you mean scaryokee.
Well sometimes it is but for the most part there are usually some fairly good singers hanging around. And the show itself sometimes is worth just watching. Just follow this link and you will see what I mean http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80Ahd94E5QM
They say he does a mean job of Love Shack, but we have not seen it yet. As soon as we catch him doing it and get it on video we sure will be sharing it!
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